Grateful and Blessed and Kind of a Mess

Let’s be serious here,
If I’m gonna be sincere
I don’t like how I feel
But I’m gonna be real.

Today I’m more mess than blessed
More in distress than holiness
Gratitude sounds like platitude
My attitude needs Beatitude.

The rectitude for which I long
Seems out of reach, I’m not that strong

Drowning in hypermentalization
This answer, unwanted realization.

Reality seems so obscure
My path, unclear, a hazy blur.
Just need to focus, adjust the lens
Then see my worth with you again.

Clarity evades my eyes
Confusion lingers as a guise
But underneath, down at my core
To rest and trust would thus restore.